As most of you know, the past few months have been quite a journey for my husband and myself. It seems as though one thing after another has been happening, yet I am not letting it hinder my faith. In August, Jon and I found out that we were adding a new member to our family. In September, I resigned from my position at the school I was at for good reason. In October, I was sick most days and had difficulty getting anything done. In November, we were in a car accident, costing us all kinds of money we didn’t have, due to car rental, Insurance deficiencies, and getting the car fixed.
I was not sure how we were going to survive December or recover from everything that had happened. It’s been difficult enough to go down to one income and unexpected expenses surfacing through various happenings. Not to mention, we have a child on the way, so there are medical expenses. With my lack of activity from sickness and trying to eat cheap, I have put on more weight than I should with this pregnancy. But one thing I knew I needed to do was to keep praying..for guidance and wisdom throughout this mess. I knew that God knew exactly what we needed in His time. He has never left us stranded, and had faith that He still wouldn’t.
In December, we were gifted with many surprises. Jon was given a raise and a bonus, which helped us be put in a better place. We had family members, along with friends, who were there for us for transportation purposes. My aunt let us “shop” in her pantry. We have had people, such as our landlord and others we have been acquainted with in the business realm whom have shown great understanding with our situation and have been patient with us. We found out we are having a precious boy! Then, little did we know, our dear friends took it upon themselves to help us with groceries in just the right time, when we absolutely could not afford to buy any. We didn’t have a penny that could cover that or gas. It was just enough to get us by. Then, my best friend gave me her maternity clothes because nothing in my closet fits me right now. This helped me realize even more how blessed we truly are. Everything is in God’s timing, and the best friends and family a person could ask for.
We are still continuing to be blessed. Times are still difficult, but we are climbing out of this valley we have been stuck in. We are making our way to the mountain top. I have to keep reminding myself to keep the faith, and pray without ceasing. God’s timing is always perfect. He never lets us down. I am not sure of the purpose of all this hardship we have been through, but I know that Jon and I will be stronger because of it. Importantly, our baby boy is still growing and healthy. I am also trying to work my way back to a healthier lifestyle, especially as directed by my doctor.
The only thing I worry about now is where we will end up when our lease expires the 1st of April. I will be 9 months pregnant, but we question if we can still be able to live here. But we are not sure if we are able to live any place else. This uncertainty does have me worried, but I know I need to keep Philippians 4:6 in mind. “Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.”
Another verse that has stuck out to me, I wrote on some art I created and gave as gifts for family and an amazing choir director in thanks. It was Psalm 18:28. “For You will light my lamp; the LORD my God will enlighten my darkness.” God’s light will always shine through, no matter how dark it becomes. The darkness trembles in His presence. I must keep the faith and continue to run the race, with endurance.