Faith and Endurance: Running the Race

Creating Dreams. Achieving Goals. Trusting God

The Timeline June 15, 2012

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Since my last post, I have been off and on with my eating habits. I’m trying to do better, but it’s been difficult, as my will power seems to be weaker than in times past. What happened? I know my appetite is completely different since being pregnant. It’s hard trying to get back to normal. 

As I started thinking a little harder, I realized I was missing something from my plans of weight loss and healthier life. I need a timeline for my weight loss to help push me a little harder. I need to set smaller, short-term goals to reach at a time to reach my big long-term goal, my ultimate goal. 

Mine and Jon’s 3 year wedding anniversary is coming up on Wednesday, the 20th. I was hoping to be able to look great for him. I was looking at my wedding photos recently, and that sheer disappointment began to surface again. But then I think to myself there is no reason I shouldn’t get back to that this year. So, with this timeline, I am hoping and praying I will endure. That’s the title of my blog anyway, right?  For a couple of years now I have been wanting to run in my first 5K. So, I need to run my first 5K this fall. I need to start training now. Running will help shape up my legs and butt…and hopefully my hips. I will need to do strength training along the way. That is my first short-term goal. My next goal is to be able to run in the country music half marathon. It has been my goal for years to be able to run it by the time I was 30 years of age. Next year I will be 29. I should be able to do this. Ultimately, it is my goal to lose 100 pounds by this time next year, by my 4th wedding anniversary. 

I know with these goals in mind, the weight loss will come with it. But I know I must also get into the habit of journaling my food and count my calories. They say it takes 21 days to make a habit. That should be my first challenge/goal to overcome with eating, exercising, and journaling…to build a habit. Then, everything else should be able to fall into place. 

I am also still working on trying to find that balance of taking care of Micah, as well as fitting in a work out and everything else. Time management isn’t one of my strong suits, even though people have known me to be one of the most punctual people they’ve come across. Although, I am hoping, since I have signed up for the emeals.com, on the clean eating program, this will help with dinner and balance everything else out. It is designed for busy moms on a budget..and that is now where I fall. I am really excited for my first grocery trip and first week of trying this to see how it turns out. So, here’s to continuing the journey with goals in mind.

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The Continuous Journey June 5, 2012

Filed under: Achieving Goals — jenniferburton @ 6:52 pm

What a crazy and exciting year we’ve had since the beginning of 2012. I feel as though so much has happened in a short amount of time. In my last blog I spoke of financial hardships and my desperate need to keep the faith and to try to go back to a healthy lifestyle. Jon and I moved to an apartment, closer to Nashville, we had a beautiful and healthy baby boy, and we are still going strong. However, there are some aspects of my life where I feel I am having to start all over. As I am still unemployed, I am continuing my search for a job so that we are in a more livable situation, and I may continue to do what I love, which is to teach. I am enjoying my time spent with Micah, but I know I would enjoy it more with a more comfortable income. I am asking my readers to keep me in your prayers about me finding a job. I know that God has something for me out there. It’s just a matter of time of when He presents that opportunity and opens the door for me. 

On another note, I am having to start all over with my weight loss. I gained about 55 pounds in my pregnancy. So far, I had lost 20, but gained some back. I’m not exactly sure how that happened. I haven’t been eating ALL healthy, but I haven’t been eating THAT horrible either. Sometimes I really hate my metabolism. I’ve never really been pleased with my body and how it functions. It doesn’t take much at all to make a BIG screw up. Lately, I have been trying to walk every day..or every day that I can. I started doing this at 3 weeks postpartum. I am now almost 6 weeks. I feel as though my appetite cannot be satisfied and I feel dehydrated most of the time. I am trying to drink plenty of water and fluids, and I am trying to eat protein and as healthy as I can. I’m not sure why I never seem satisfied. I am also trying to get adequate sleep and keep my energy up, keep up with the house, and balance school work as it has been very difficult with a newborn in tow.

As I am looking forward to doing real work outs after my 6 week check up coming up on Friday, I hate that I am having to start all over. I have not weight this much since I was a senior in high school…10 years ago. For 10 years I was able to keep most of the weight off, and it took having a baby to get me back to this point. I don’t blame Micah..I blame myself. Although I do question, was the pregnancy a reason or an excuse for the way I have gotten? I am now at a point where I need to lose a total of 100 pounds to reach an ideal weight. Currently, I need to lose 40 pounds to get down to prepregnancy weight. I am nursing, but I’m not seeing the weight loss from that, as people have so often talked about. Am I being impatient with that? I also hate that I do not have near the stamina anymore as I used to. I have become so sedentary. Why did I let myself get to this point? 

One thing I have noticed, that probably has played a factor in my weight gain is my waning motivation. I feel as though I have lost my drive and motivation to be active and healthy as well. I am thinking is I have done it by myself for so long, that I am tired..and tired of doing it by myself. I need a strong accountability partner or group. I’ve never had one and feel I really need one. You’d think I’d have more drive and motivation by myself since I have done it before. But I feel it’s not there anymore. How did I lose it? I need someone to be by my side the entire way, who wants to do this as badly as I. I do wish it was my husband, but he’s just not in it, not as much as I want it. But it does feel like all the hard work I have done before has suddenly gone down the drain. Oh, the struggles. 

I know I must keep going. Paul ran the race with endurance, as should I. I just have to put my mind to it. However, is there anyone out there who wants or is willing to be by my side through this continuous journey? I want to FINALLY reach my goal weight for the first time in my life. Even when I lost so much before, I still didn’t reach my goal weight..I was within a few pounds of it. I know how to eat healthy for the most part..I have years of my own research and working at it under my belt. I’m tired of being lazy. I’m tired of being overweight…but I am also just tired, and I feel I have let not only myself down, but I let my husband down, too.  I need help. Who can help me? I need a REAL plan with ACTION. I don’t want to just talk ideas. I need someone to go out and DO with me.